Today we had our first meeting with my small group in Grief Share. We are going through this book together – Grieving the Child I Never Knew by Kathe Wunnenburg. I have only just begun but I would highly recommend it to anyone who is grieving in this way. We had a very special time together today. I am so grateful for the ladies in my group. You may be wondering about how I have been doing because it is not something that you just ask someone. And being pregnant it may seem that I have moved on. Well, it has been a journey for sure and I hope to share more as I go. It has been hard to share about much of anything because this grief in my own heart has been so so subtle and yet so consuming. So sometimes I don’t even know how I am really doing. I am seeing ways that it has crept into so much of my heart and mind. Causing my heart to fear and keeping my hope and joy surpressed. I can already testify today though of the healing and restoration that is happening already. I am so thankful and grateful. Thanks for being patient too since I have been so out of the blogging world. I am praying I will be all the more hopeful and joyful in Christ. I will always remember His mercy and goodness. And I am reminded that when I am weak, He is strong. Thanks for your sweet love and prayers over the past months.
Carrie,
Know that I am praying for you now more than always! I cant imagine the hurt that you feel. You do seem to forget when someone gets pregnant after losing a child that they are still greiving even in this joyous time! Love you sweet girl! Lets get together soon!
Hey Carrie,
Just want to let you know that you are in my thoughts as you go through this process. I had told you about a song by Watermark..I looked up the name of it–Glory Baby on the CD A Grateful People. It is really cool and I really think talks about losing a child. May God bring healing to the women in your group!
Carrie,
I am praying for you as you continue to deal with this deep pain. My mom has a quote hanging in her house that I constantly thought of when dealing our loss…”God is too wise to be mistaken. God is too good to be unkind. So when you don’t understand, when you don’t see His plan, when you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.”
Love you!
I know this is something I’ve never been through so I cannot relate at all, but I am just so glad to see that you and others have an outlet like this. I remember your husband put something like this on your blog right after it happened “This may be common but it’s not common to us” and I thought that was PROFOUND! That fear is always in me each pregnancy and you kind of go through thinking how you would deal with it, again, having not gone through it and having no clue, I’m just saying it has bothered me at times the lack of sympathy mothers get when they’ve gone through this (that sentence was incredibly jumbled, ha). It seems that just because it’s “common” that you’re supposed to just grieve and get on with it, or not even really grieve at all.
Your grief shows your love and knowledge of LIFE and that says SO much!
Love you friend!
Audrey
Glad you are back to blogging and more than that, I’m glad we can recognize the goodness and mercy of God in your family’s life.
Also, I made your black bean salsa. Delious!
Jana